I have struggled with binge eating disorder since I was a kid. It’s a real eating disorder, in fact the most common of all eating disorders. Food became a way that I would cope with my emotions. It was a vicious cycle really. I’d get picked on for my weight at school (kids suck, let’s be real), which would lead me to eat, which would lead me to gain more weight, which would lead me to get picked on. I think people think that I no longer struggle just because I’ve lost a significant amount of weight and because I’m a coach, but that’s just not true. Nobody is perfect!
Today I went into NYC for an audition and I had a total anxiety attack. It’s something that I’ve dealt with for years. And after as I was waiting for my train and feeling all of this anxiety, my first instinct was to go to McDonalds and binge. I figured I could just get back on track the next day (like I always used to tell myself) and that it wasn’t a big deal. I quickly realized how I was not only falling into old habits very quickly, I was also allowing myself to rationalize why this was ok. For the first time I stopped myself and went and got a salad instead. You don’t understand, that’s HUGE for me! I really feel like I’m taking steps in the right direction and it’s an incredible feeling.
I got home from the city and I was so happy to snuggle my puppies and check in with my team before my workout, as opposed to sitting and wallowing about a binge! I feel like we never think about the way we will feel after in the moment!
Teddy is my older dog, he’s 3. I often forget that he was a little devil when he was a puppy…like Chip who is almost 1.
He is lucky he is so freaking cute!!
I get asked all of the time my tips & tricks for dealing with binge eating disorder, and honestly, one of my BIGGEST tips is incorporating the foods that you crave that might be “bad” foods in a healthy way! I have quality dark chocolate a few nights a week (it’s super rich so you can’t eat that much of it anyway!) because I’m a total chocoholic. I also make healthy recipe versions of those foods that are typically bad for you! For example, I LOVE chicken fried rice! And if it’s Hibachi chicken fried rice, forget it! Bomb. Dot. Com. So I am literally OBSESSED with this cauliflower fried rice recipe. Yes, you read that right CAULIFLOWER. Get to know it, make it your friend, because it is one of my FAVORITE recipe swaps. Brian tried cauliflower mashed potatoes and had no clue they weren’t real!
- 1 small head of cauliflower, separated in florets
- 3 slices of uncured bacon, cut into small dice
- 2 large eggs
- 1-inch knob of ginger, grated with a microplane
- 1 small onion, minced
- 4 ounces of sliced mushrooms
- 1-2 tablespoons of Bragg’s aminos
- Kosher salt
- Freshly ground black pepper
- Splash of Red Boat Fish Sauce
Ok to be honest, I totally skipped a stepped and bought frozen cauliflower..ok, sue me. I’m a hot mess just trying to make this work! When it was out of the microwave (voila!), I put it in my food processor until it became the size and consistency of rice. I tossed the diced bacon into a large skillet over medium heat and fried until the bits were crispy.
While the bacon was cooking, I cooked the eggs in a separate pan and then sliced them. And by sliced them I mean I literally just stabbed it a bunch of times with my spatula. And I know, you’re like, “WTF, ginger?!” But it’s really good! I use a potato peeler to remove the skin and then grate it.
I set my skillet to medium-high heat and added the chopped onions and mushrooms and cooked them until the mushrooms were browned. After adding the ginger and stirring it around for 30 seconds, I threw in the cauliflower and even more salt and pepper.
I put a lid on the skillet and lowered the heat to low and cooked it covered for about 5 minutes. When the cauliflower was soft (but not too mushy because then it’s just like…mush), I added the aminos, and the so elegantly chopped egg omelet. Then I threw the bacon on top. I also added some sesame seeds because I had them for some reason..who knew?! You can add salt & pepper to anything to taste. I also often make this recipe and add chicken.
I definitely recommend that you get acquainted with Bragg’s aminos if you haven’t already! It’s a super legit healthy swap for soy sauce. It tastes the same!